Loneliness...

I roam around alone, waiting for that moment;
I do not know what it is, or when it will come;
Yet I wait, in solitude, stark solitude...

I look around for answers, to a question I don't know!
I look for clues, to a riddle that I know exists not;
I only wait, in solitude, for the moment may come soon...

Wonder sometimes, am I alone in this wide world?
Is this solitude just for me, as if some gift from the heavens?
I do not know, I just have to wait ... all alone...

Finally I see a light, as bright as I have never seen before;
"Is this it?" I wonder, "Yes!" says the voice, "I come to say that you are the ONE";
"You will be lonely, for that is how it is meant to be!"

I am lonely, and this loneliness kills me!
But I have a task; and I have to know what it is!
And this loneliness is my companion, in day or nite;

I sit today and look back, at those days spent in solitude;
And wish for them once more,
This world is not for me, I am the ONE ... and such are meant to be lonely!

A placement, 'n lots of joy!

1 and a half years of an MBA course ... all the struggles, the nite outs ... and now getting placed! WOW! A wonderful feeling! I have a job once more! All that I had worked for has finally come to a meaningful conclusion ... a FMCG sales position!!!

A wonderful GD (that's Group Discussion, for the uninitiated!) followed by an equally impressive interview ... 'n then the final selection! The GD process really made me think (for a change!) and was innovative, to say the least!

Seems strange that I sat for a whole lot of companies that I would have never wanted to work for! I sit for the IBM GD for a sales position, and they invite me to sit for the Application maintenance position! And the Avalon guys made me sit the whole day, write a case, discuss, and then interviewed me ... 'n REJECT!

But the fighter is not down yet ... Henkel is left, and that is where the "real" job is! And finally the target is achieved! Henkel is conquered!!!

Real joy ... 'n it is celebration time! So off I go to celebrate ... till my next blog, it is Adieu!

Inspired!

Wrote a few lines, I even don't know if they make sense! But read Sharin's blog, and the words just came forth! Here goes....

A color it may not be,

But sure I am it is a sign…

Of things that were, of things to come

It matters to me who you are, it really matters what you think,

For I think of you every single time, every single moment,

Those rainy days are still fresh in my mind, as are those slippery sidewalks…

Where we walked, some eons ago, just you and me,

And your beautiful laughter!

You taught me to smile, you taught me to live…

I learnt to live, but live for whom…?

I wept in silence, stormed across the room,

Creating words…that the world now calls poetry!

The words are empty, the feelings are not,

They are, after all, nothing but you in verse!

It is winter, dark and gray…

And I wait for the sunshine, bright and gay…

I always think of you…only of you…

I didn’t choose these words, you did

I didn’t write this poem, I’m sure you did!!!

Undhiyo .... 'n back on my feet!

Arrived in my city (for those of you morons who still don't know - my city is MUMBAI! ) and was immediately down with fever and don't know what! Really don't know what hit me!!! Thought was quite ok with all the antibiotics that I took on my own... but I guess not! Yeah, I know...Dada... I shouldn't take medicines on my own! But this is the first time my cure has failed!!! So a trip to my doc the day I land up here, and for the first time ever... I see him really concerned! So he puts me onto another round of some antibiotic...advises a liquid diet...

And then, after 2 days, I decide...what the heck! This is not doing me any good! I visit the doc again...'n he advises rest, liquid diet....I tell him I'm not getting any better! He advises patience! Then comes the Undhiya! Courtesy a kind neighbour! I decide ... enough is enough...Illness be damned...doc be damned! I dig into the delicious thing....'n say what!? I'm all ok the next day!!! Trust good ol' Gujju food to get you back on track! WOW!

Ok, now I decide what to do in MUMBAI!!! Have to meet so many people...am meeting my college chums today....at the engagement ceremony of another of our mates! Have I become so old!??? Anyways, looking forward to it...long time since I met these guys! Long overdue!

Placement season is nearer than it ever was! And 6 companies in the first day! Now is the time... time to prove myself! Time to show what I'm worth...! As I say, the fighter has to be back in action...he has to, his life depends on it!

All the best to everyone...EVERYONE of my batchmates!!!

Chow!

The city that was never mine...

Without a word, without a tear, I bid goodbye...
to the city that was never mine!

I came here searching for love, a love that was not meant to be,
I came searching for a girl, a girl I knew would never be mine!
I went along those paths, where I felt my future was, but no said the city roads,
"you are meant for better paths"; so...

Without a word, without a tear, I bid goodbye...
to the city that was never mine!

I often dream about her now, now that memories are all that's left,
I wonder why, really why, she would turn me down for the world!
We talked for hours on end, but no said the girl so well, "go", she said, for
"you are meant for better paths"; so...

Without a word, without a tear, I bid goodbye...
to the city that was never mine!

I long to return sometime, to the city I left so long ago,
To its nooks and barren streets, to meet again the girl I loved!
I hope to catch a glimpse of her, bathing in the twilight sun,
I hope to go back again....to the city that was never mine!